just gonna stand there and watch me burn.
These days everything's just so... tiresome.
maybe its just how the pace of life has changed and everything, how everyone's increasingly involved with their own things, or maybe its just me cutting myself off from the rest of the world.
Having said that well, still have to thank some people for like trying their best to not exclude me off totally, but at best, its still feeling weird i guess. And I guess the thing I have to mention, on behalf of 2 other idiots is that... mahjong isn't a deus ex machina for us all to stay.
I find myself doing more and more 'stunts', coming to things late and all. I duno, everything's just weird these days. And the injury that's been around for like more than a month isn't exactly helping my mood cause soccer's out of the question, and just at a period where I'm actually free-ing up time to actually enable myself to soccer more. fuck.
Isolating yourself away from the world just seems to be my most natural inclination these days, I mean, SNSD videos + Family Outing + a little strong heart thrown in here and there's pretty much filling my life up these days. Maybe I don't really need to find someone to understand me. maybe being a loner's just fine as it should be.
and well, I guess part of my mood's down to the fact that tomorrow's plans aren't going to be executed out like everything was planned out to be, but in any case, big shout-out to the lot who really tried their best ala Desmond ("kao, can last min pua stunt on me cancel cage") Ang and James. In any case, I'm just gonna apologise in advance for something.
You guys should probably know me well enough by now, I'm not the best at showing my emotions, I'm still better at silently dropping off my heartfelt homemade card/present at your doorstep, something i'm learning isn't worth it these day cause no1 really cares.
but i digress.
What i wanna say is that, tomorrow, no matter what you guys give me for my birthday, you probably just ellicit a pretty muted response, or even get the feeling you guys got me something i didn't want and i'm not appreciating it. Its not the case.
Its just that I really don't know how to put out my thanks other than saying "thanks" with a really sheepish smile. Even if you gave me that $240 boots i was showing shawn the other day, some adipure street shoes or even that diesel fuel for life spray and all, it won't matter, what matters really is that you swell people took time off to celebrate and actually pout thought into getting something for me. and i think you for that.
for the record though, i'm actually expecting something weird/stupid, ala boxers or even some weird alarm clock which plays on some fat pun.