50 years from now, when you look back. don't you wanna say you had the guts to get into the car?

Do you remember when we didn't care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows, I do, too
What can I do
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

As soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Everything that matters breaks in two

Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows, I do, too
What can I do
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Send The All-American Rejects Ringtones to your Cell

big thank you to everyone who came, wspecial mention to those who missed stuff, as well as those to came after gala dinner.Glares are reserved for a couple who gave crap excuses.

thank you's too to those who couldnt drop by but dropped a birthdya message still.

and a couple of question marks to those who promsied attendance but disappeared.

i'm tempted to say middle fingers to those who didnt reply. i'm kidding.

overall. well spent $400++

take care guys, hopefully, we can have something like that again next year LOL.

and the sun, will set free you.

050709 1030
Yeow: Eh Jason, your ice box gone.
jason: huh? wtf?
Yeow: ya, just now when i went to smoke all, still there, then now gone le.
jason: ... ok GG-fied

050709 1140
jason: Hello, mum? oh yea we checked out already.. but we lost the ice box gone.
mum:#%!#$^$@&@!!@#@!



yeap, that was the highly anti-climatic conclusion to my 19th birthday celebrations.

right now, my mum's just giving me the cold shoulder all blah blah again, and yea, the entire mood's pretty skewed up now at the moment. oh well. Poor end to a really great time.



I'm kinda irritated, cause I catch the irony in all its glory.


The story of the 18th year of my life, has been how to start things wonderfully, and end off with a piss, with literally everythin falling in my face.

I prefer to lookback at the last year, not during december like most people, but from 1 birthday, to another, to kinda see how things have changed (and my god, how much it changes).

The last year was pretty... crazy. and fun.

If I take it as a span of 1 chalet, to another chalet. I would say last year's chalet was abit of a screw up, too many random people all in 1 place, kinda made it impossible for much interaction to go on. Or maybe its just because this year's core people were much closer and much more open and comfortable with each other already.

but that's not the point really.

what I wanna say is.. my 18th year of existence.. had many incidents to remember. many incidents to cherish. many incidents to learn from. things to regret. things to hate myself for doing. things to look back and be content that i had the guts to do it, just so i can pick out the silver lining in that dark cloud.

I think tis a little unfortunate that I learn my life's biggest lessons during times when I really don't have the time to learn them. First was way back in sec 4, when i really learnt abouy guys (this is about as wrong as it should sound), and the second was well.. last year, during A's, when I learnt about how to deal with girls.

from the "i don't know how you guys spell stress, but personally i spell it as a l-e-v-e-l-s". there was A's. there was the clique's toughest times. there was the cold shoulder treatments from the 623's and the push pop's which left me scratching my heads. there was the how to comfort a friend in need. there was a how to make sure things between friends dun end up awkward. there was a "KNNCCBWTF WAD DE HAWK, HOW THE HELL PEOPLE STUDY FOR A LEVELS" period (but trust me, after you get through it. its not as hard as you think it is). there was the wonderful times of 20 CENTS(YES YOU DIDNT SEE IT WRONGLY) coke at Thales, and having funwith robin hotcakes, lightsabres and all those idiots, although sadly, I can't seem to catch up with them anymore. there was the looking-like-an-idiot-playing-for-lukie's-father's-team-and-tiring-out-faster-than-some-of-the-old-man. then there came the "platoon 3 watch your front, platoon 3 SEDI-AH!". there was the crazy heat rash half way thru field camps. the crazy IST's from Sergant Charles. then there was the "BMTC ROAR!", THE "1 check 1 check 1", finally... THE TRRRAAAAAAIIIIINNNNNNNEEEEEDDDDDDD SOLDIER! POP LO!(probably like only lukas will understand this, cause everyone who reads this hasn't gone thru army, won't go thru army, or could only go thru a POC :D). then there was the I! AM A MEDIC OF THE SINGAPORE ARMED FORCES. and also the injections. then there was the footwart that doesn't seem to wanna go away.

in conclusion, I guess what I can say for sure is that its been an enriching year, packed chock full of life's lessonss for me, opportunities for me to grow,and rejections which have lft an indelible mark on me.



which leaves me to prepare myself for another rollercoaster year install for me.

I probs won't be able to upload up the photos from the chalet intime so my chalet post will probs have to appear next week.


well...

I guess, this is it. the full stop to the 18th year of my life.


and this... is for you.





ok so i guess. this is it. the next time i see you on the streets, there's not gonna be any friendly hellos, no smiles or waves. just.. walk by like we never knew each other? is that really what you want?





But Why Are You Making This Thing Drag On So Long
(i Wanna Know)
I'm Sick And Tired Of This Silly Game
(silly Games)
Don't Think That I'm The Only One Here To Blame
It's Not Me Here Who's Been Going Round Slamming Doors
That's When You Turned And Said To Me
I Don't Care Babe Who's Right Or Wrong
I Just Don't Love You No More.


I'm Sorry For The Tears I Made You Cry
I Guess This Time It Really Is Goodbye
You Made It Clear When You Said