random thoughts
like everyone else, i suddenly realise 24 hours a day is not enough.
fuck (a certain indivual called dennis once commented that i rarely used the spelt fuck out opting to often use variations such as fark etc. and that when i really spelt it out, i really mean it lol) i see the amount of work i have to do everyday, i feel damn fucking sian liao. minus all the bullshit i'm getting about studying hard and not wanting to stress me or pressure me and all that shit, fark it, even if someones pressuring me, youre the last one i garun-damn-tee. dammit all i wanna do is to just go out and have fun. or just lessen my load.
being sec 4 sucks. its really everything that has a beginning has an end. ur beginnning either starts here or everything ends. my father never fails to stress that to me.
and to be honest, i dun even know where i wanna go? SAJC? VJC? either way its lots and lots of hard work, something that doesn't come naturally to me as compared to someone lke chang yang or desmond. i keep pushing that back saying after the holidays, then its after world cup. wad's next chua? after epl? might as well say after u get enlisted into ns blah blah
and today, m father commented that, i was getting rude. in my replies, like very defensive, the minute u accuse me i become a bastard. then i think about it, actually not really, i'm a bastard even when u dun scold me. i think yap heng can testify, i dunno why also, do i derive a pleasure out of people's misery like jansen? like on boey and his 10 megapixel screen? i dunno. 16 liao, need to change le. and everything starts now. like wad Mr Randall Siow told all those who attended CIC Soulforge 2005 and Exile 2006, live everyday like its ur last.
fuck (a certain indivual called dennis once commented that i rarely used the spelt fuck out opting to often use variations such as fark etc. and that when i really spelt it out, i really mean it lol) i see the amount of work i have to do everyday, i feel damn fucking sian liao. minus all the bullshit i'm getting about studying hard and not wanting to stress me or pressure me and all that shit, fark it, even if someones pressuring me, youre the last one i garun-damn-tee. dammit all i wanna do is to just go out and have fun. or just lessen my load.
being sec 4 sucks. its really everything that has a beginning has an end. ur beginnning either starts here or everything ends. my father never fails to stress that to me.
and to be honest, i dun even know where i wanna go? SAJC? VJC? either way its lots and lots of hard work, something that doesn't come naturally to me as compared to someone lke chang yang or desmond. i keep pushing that back saying after the holidays, then its after world cup. wad's next chua? after epl? might as well say after u get enlisted into ns blah blah
and today, m father commented that, i was getting rude. in my replies, like very defensive, the minute u accuse me i become a bastard. then i think about it, actually not really, i'm a bastard even when u dun scold me. i think yap heng can testify, i dunno why also, do i derive a pleasure out of people's misery like jansen? like on boey and his 10 megapixel screen? i dunno. 16 liao, need to change le. and everything starts now. like wad Mr Randall Siow told all those who attended CIC Soulforge 2005 and Exile 2006, live everyday like its ur last.
"don't find love, let love find you. tat's why its called falling in love. you don't fall on purpose. you just fall"