random thoughts

Provenance: pic taken during the KL Trip in June. Me and winston were teaming up together in a MIDNIGHT VOLLEYBALL match agains Choong and Liang. We won. Of course. Was the outcome ever in question? lol


When I was young my father used to tell me this (he didn't bring me to the arching band dun worry =p)

"If you dun have the guts, don't do bad things. But if you wanna screw someone, make sure you go ALL THE WAY. If i want to 'kill' someone in the job, I make sure i do it such that he has no chance of making any comeback"

This is a lesson i learnt the very hard way in DOTA. for 2 games in a row. Both times i was owning the poor fellow in early game. Both times i contemplated whether or not to continue, keeping in mind that he might just leave if i pushed it too far.

both times i decided to change target.

both times the guy made a comeback. pwning me. NB. and its not like they were that much of a late game hero la. 1 CM. 1 Sniper. really meh?

anyway. Lesson learned. As harsh as this reality sounds, i guess its wad happens in the buisness world, that dog eat dog world where u either eat, or u get eaten.

but then again, it seems kinda common logic doesn't it. If i give you a chance to survive, its inevitable for you to decide to turn around and bite me back when you have the chance. Its human nature, what you do to me, i will undo to you. with twice the fury. an eye for an eye, never mind if the world goes blind.

oh well. We pick up lessons from everywhere. just something i suddenly realised lol.

and looks can be decieving.

behind that cute looking childish, mama's boy DARREN CHOONG lies this cold blooded murderer. NB. tel me to eat chocolate, saying its alright. only to turn back all of a sudden and say that, ITS NOT ALRIGHT FOR A PERSON WITH FOOD POISONING haha.

die la choong. wah lao why u try and kill me >.<

chanced upon Vivien's blog to see her post about hopes.

Feels kinda familiar cause i know wad's that feeling like. Experiencing it is rather painful i guess. to know the outcome, yet still blindly jumping into it, putting your hopes high. Although you may try to negate that effect by placing your hopes low, you still can't help but feel that sense of...of... disdain i guess. disappointment. nothing hurts you mer than having ur hopes lifted up and stamped on to the floor by the person, worst still if he or she is nonchalant about it.

you tell yourself to give up. but then you realise that giving up is easier said than done. you can tell yourself to give up since july. and yet fail till now.

looking at this photo. i suddenly just want 1 last chance. in a camp. I realy miss camps. only had 1 in school back in sec 1. sian

with the sudden influx of people having proms. i kinda remember mind and blush. I mean like compared to people's you could say Victoria's was quite forgettable..? Granted these were mixed schools like AHS, CCHS(main) TKSS. but still as in like. I dunno. Compared to our Graduation Ceremony where we pretty much just sat there. Ok, clapping for fellow peers i can understand. BUT WAS THERE A NEED FOR PREVIOUS YEAR WINNERS TO COME ALONG TOO? it made our graduation ceremony seem like Speech day Pt. 2. Yea, so my arguement point might be really lame, like the only arguement is the 'gan qing' the feeling, and that maybe there;s no need for such 'crap' in a boys school. I won't say you're wrong, but at the same time i don't think i'm wrong either. its just like... some form of.. not really regret but.. i dunno wad's the word la. shit you chua. why so emo all of a sudden.

Liang, gavin, Heng, Kang all going on some VJC trip lol. safe trip guys. and godspeed. lol

Vivien's going Genting soon. wah lao eh. how many places she going sia haha.

safe trip and have fun guys ^_^

I have this feeling that i have more to write. can't remember though. oh well. does it really matter? probably blog about it tomorrow i guess. that's the problem with me. I MUST do things when i think of it, cannot procastinate at all.


EDIT: i finally remembered wad i wanted to write le.

It concerns a friend of mine, someone i care abit la haha. cause she's damn funny also, and i think we quite alike lol.

I mean if a girl asked u if you like this another girl before, you don't like say "ya but i think i wasn't good enough for her" and u stead with the girl that asked.

i dunno la, but between u and me, it kinda demeans the girl? like gives her an inferio complex that 'no, you're actually worse than her'. maybe worse was too strong...err not as good? i dunno. it just has that kind of feeling la.

I didn't ask too specifically the whole going on so i'm not that sure as to how the question was popped and how it was answered. but this is roughly wad i was told i guess.

in retrospect however, i think if a girl asked that kind of question, i dunno how my answer would variate. I think that would be some sort of a standard template i guess. shit. lol.

maybe an answer like, "yea but i decided that, maybe I didn't see in her wad i saw in you" or something along this line la. Its 2.34. AM. you don't expect much of a very intellectual answer do u. I'm not a hunter in the night =p.

P.S: if you don't want it to be here, just drop me a msg on msn and i'll gladly take it off, just felt like saying it here cause i felt it was damn bastard of him la haha.