oh... its what you do to me...
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
sometimes i wonder if you're a curse.
like i mention to you to like 2 people only. and they disappeared soon after. or like.. i dunno acted strange
i meet you and everything in life starts to spiral out of control.
you appear in camp alife in there starts turning down hill too.
its like your my own personal brand of heroin, the more you appear the worst things get, but its not like i want it to stop either.
wtf
anyway, the song title's dedicated to army life after a comment from this bunkmate of mine. cause like... army makes you do lots of crazy stuff, like you tend to injured yourself more and everything therefore: "what you do to me..."
there's lots of things to say, but right now i just can't exactly put things out appropriately. Ive no ideawhy also. All I can say is...
fuck this.
fuck this all.
I miss so much stuff, I have no idea what i don't miss anymore. god dammit.
"sometimes i wish i could save you, but there's so many things that, I want you to know."
I mean its not like i wanna whine or what. but a terrible rash, a wart, and the notion of field camp on monday is making me extremely grumpy and displeased.
the fact that wolverine origins sucked terribly isn't helping my mood either.
hell I think even Fast and Furious had a MUCH better storyline. and at least it came away with something to remember.
Taken was pretty cool, abit unrealistic that the actor became like superman with his 1 man mission and all but yea, still quite fun.
everything else has been so sucky it isn't even funny. I think I should go into directing to save the damn industry ahaha.
still searching for my code in life.
everything's been going in 1 steady downhill. I hate being down in the doldrums and everything but this hole's going to take some time to crawl out from.I know this post looks really strange, and I won't deny it is. rahhh..
"you know that I could use somebody..."