"Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now" - Sugarcult, Saying Goodbye
I know tomorrow's the day we get our o level results. We get back the product of basically everything with have fought for in the past like...erm... 10 years?
which is why i''m feeling worried for lack of worrying of my o level results. I dunno if its because i'm quite sure of wad i'm getting or because Valentines Day is giving me more problems. Me and Melissa thinks its a mixture of both (melissa is my 1st IC of Valentines day, I'm the 2nd in charge).
Anyway, With the imminient O lvel results arriving in less than 24 hours I'mjust going to share my miraculous results, hopeful results, expected results and really crap results.
[Miraculous]
English:A1
E Maths:A1
A Maths:A1
Chinese:A1
History/SS:B3
Chemistry: B4
Physics:B3
L1R5:10
I'm pretty sure i can secure 1's for both english and e maths. A and chinese are rather difficult to see i expect more of a a2 for them. HSS and Physics was quite badly done IMHO so a B3 would be quite good for me le.
[hopeful]
English:A1
E Maths:A1
A Maths:A1
Chinese:A2
History/SS:B3
Chemistry:
Physics:B4
L1R5: 12
Basically a more realistic apporach to my results but with a tinge of opefulness in my a maths and my HSS to pull thru a grade higher.
[expected]
English:A1
E Maths:A1
A Maths:A2
Chinese:A2
History/SS:B4
Chemistry:
Physics:B4
L1R5: 14
OK this is my most realistic score for the O levels. actually it seems alright leh. If only i could improve both my hist and phy to a me decent grade of 14, den with a score of 12 i wouldn't be that stuck in erm...limbo-land haha..
[bullshit/damn crap]
English:A2
E Maths:A2
A Maths:B3
Chinese:B3
History/SS:B4
Chemistry:
Physics:C5
L1R5:19
this is basically just screwing up everything. b3 for a maths and chinese a2's for my confident subject and barely doing anything for phy and hist.
next post will include selection of jc's plus pros and cons imho. until i get my results i dun really wanna bother thinking la huh.
ok at this point of time you should have noticed and should be about to question me aboutthe lyrics at the start of the post.
i dunno, i guess it kinda sums up my feelings at the moment.
I guess when Winston said about "go and learn some social skills", in retrospect, i haven't done much about it i guess. I don't think I need to eleborate, you guys all know wad happened la huh, or probably have a rough idea.
Like i said before, being an only child limited my scope of activity with people and to an extent i guess it altered my behaviour. I guess this is a part of life that i have to learn to handle and change accordingly. gosh i've said this so many times its getting lame but i guess i still gotta try at least.
and if dat's not enough i realise that someone told her la NB. and the more i see her the more she reminds me of ying. its damn scary.
I dunno la, its like all the bad karma i accumulated had to come together on 1 single day.
Let's hope tomorrow's bright spark will be a decent o level results. fuck everything else i can live without it.
I don't know wad the future holds, i didn't come here to predict or prophesize it. I'm not here to tell u how it ends.I'm here to tell u how it begins, where we go for now is a choice i leave to...myself.