critical cynic
I think i'm too critical about things sometimes.
like the post about the musical?
like my gripes about school?
sometimes i think i need to take a step back and breath. chill(which incidentally i hate people saying to me).
i detest people telling me to chill and stuff when i'm venting out my frustrations. I don't need you to tell me to chill, i would verymuch prefer you show me an alternative viewpoint, help me to understand the other person's story or the other side that I haven't thought off.
then again maybe that's too intrinsic a part of me.
its like this regret i have deep down
about this wonderful person who's really a nice fella and were close. But deep down inside i guess i know we won't ever be best of pals and stuff like that cause the characteristics of him that i detest, i really get irritated. unlike some other's where even their detestable points i can take. His is just... i dunno mcgriddle-esque. indescribable? lol!
which really pisses me off cause like i said he's a really great fella and i shuldnt have any complaints about him. but here we are. like I said I think i'm too critical.
My father has this mantra which i think is really true but i just havent been able to apply to myself yet.
"Be lenient to others but always remember to be strict on yourselves."
I need to learn how not to impose my beliefs on others, on how just because i can do something, they have to do that too. Now that's a lesson to be learnt.
:D