do you know your enemy?

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sorry if i spoilt your appetite :P

i am jack's broken heart.

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Verse 1 - T.I.]:
Ever had one of dem days you wish woulda stayed home
Run into a group of niggas who getting they hate on
You walk by they get wrong you reply then shit get blown
Way outta proportion way past discussion
Just you against them, pick one then rush em
Figure you get jumped hell thats next
They don't wanna stop there now they bustin
Now you gushin, ambulance rushin you to the hospital
with a bad concussion
Plus ya hit 4 times bullet hit ya spine paralyzed waist down
now ya wheel chair bound
Never mind that now you lucky to be alive,
Just think it all started you fussin with 3 guys
Nigga ya pride in the way but ya pride is the way
You could fuck around get shot die any day
Niggas die every day, all over bullshit, dope, money
Dice game, ordinary hood shit
Could this be cuz of hip hop music?
Or did the ones with the good sense not use it?
Usually niggas don't know what to do
When their back against the wall so they just start shootin
For red or for blue or for blow I guess,
From Bankhead or from your projects
No more stress, now I'm straight, now I get it now I take
Time to think, before I make mistakes just for my family's sake
That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gone away

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone and
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Verse 2 - T.I.]:
I ain't never been scared, I lived through tragedy
Situation coulda been dead lookin back at it
Most of that shit didn't even have to happen
But you don't think about it when you out there trappin
[ T.I. Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
In apartments hangin, smokin and rappin
Niggas start shit, next thing ya know we cappin
Get locked up then didn't even get mad
Now think about damn what a life I had
Most of that shit look back just laugh
Some shit still look back get sad
Maybe my homeboy still be around
Had I not hit the nigga in the mouth that time
I won that fight, I lost that war
I can still see my nigga walkin out that door
Who'da thought I'd never see Philant no more
Got enough dead homies I don't want no more
Cost a nigga his jaw, cost me more
I'da took that ass-whoopin now for sure
Now i think before I risk my life
Take them chances to get my stripes
A nigga put his hands on me alright
Otherwise stand there talk shit all night
Cuz I hit you, and you sue me,
I shoot you, get locked up, who me?
No more stress, now I'm straight, now I get it now I take
Time to think before I make mistakes just for my family's sake
That part of me left yesterday the heart of me is strong today
No regrets I'm blessed to say the old me dead and gone away.

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone

[Justin Timberlake]:
I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me is dead and gone, but the new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east I dont see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me is dead and gone, but the new me will be alright

[Chorus - Justin Timberlake]:
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone and
Ohh I've been travelin on this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead and gone, hey eh



all the ways you wish you could be. that's me

i look like how you wanna look.

i fuck like how you wanna fuck

i am smart, capable, and most importantly, i am free in all the ways you're not.


I've been asked this question so many times its not funny anymore, but its never gotten to me why people are so surprised when the answer they recieve to the question

"wah, who you going out with? girlfriend ah"
or
"eh who you out with, bo jio"

is
"no one la. I'm alone."

"..."
"HUH? WHY YOU GO OUT ALONE?"
"no la. lazy to find people to go out with."



then for the ultimate knockout punch.

"you wanna come with me meh"


which sometimes makes me wonder, when i ask people if they're at novena, or ask people out for cage, or perpetually whine to get some soccer (even though my knee is fucked, my right foot has a planta wart and, ergo, i am unable to run normally) I wonder how much of an idiot i look like.

"nb, wad go cage? i rather go club/go out with some random girl i'm playing with/go out with my girlfriend."


and sometimes i feel bad.

anyway, that wasn't the point of this post.

as i was saying, i was on one of this lone trips out around. this time the venue was gym in orchard, at my mum's club house. I was deciding between movies to catch on the iTouch. It was between Seven Pounds and Fight Club. At that point of time, it was like choosing between getting a life lesson (7 pounds always looked like one of those movies that taught you more about life and stuff) and 2 hours of fighting (I mean, if a movie's entitled Fight Club what would you expect the story to be about?)

Turned out my copy of 7 pounds is screwed up, the words appear in a mirro reflection, which pissed me off. So I decided to just chill out with a fight show ala huo yuan jia.

how so god damned blardy knnccbwtfwad de hawk-ingly wrong i was.


I know its more of a guy movie, but I think everyone should go catch it. For guys, its food for thought, for girls, its probably a direction to understanding how guys think sometimes, not that you need it really. (and well, cause there's brad pitt, which i've heard is supposedly damn cute)


i won't spoil the story for you all so i'll put the spoilers in black.

basically, the narrator of the story, creates a split personality, to do all the things that he's never dared to do.


which kinda reminds of me a little. Cause I used to kinda like.. idolise (is that the word to use) people. I know back in VS it kinda got out of hand cause some people suspected it and gave me stick for it. I think it was a very sub-conscious thing, not like I chose to but well, that was that.

When it came to JC, it was slightly different. It wasn't idol worship(my god this sounds so god-damned wrong) it became slightly more towards the big brother you look up to. He had the athleticism, he got the girls, he had the height (that i thought was ideal), he didn't have the looks but he made up for that with charisma (which in my book goes above looks anytime), and the same devil-may-care attitude with the cheek to talk back to teachers and make himself sound big.

(i think i should stop lest it gets too obvious. but i think some of you probably have an idea of who it is.)

unconsciously, i began to talk a little more like him, strut a little more, mirrored his style of play. And the worst thing was that you wouldnt realise that you did it, you just did.

I kinda just outgrew it after awhile, after i finally found my own set of rules and personality to follow. But it was hilarious to think back after awhile. And subsequent episodes showed him to be only human too, i got a little irked when it came down to him finding me when he had troubles, and disappearing when i had mine. Maybe I got tired of playing the condescended understudy. Maybe I found my own way. I really don't know.

But it was hilarious, because after sometime, I heard stuff. And realised he was exactly the same as me, looking up to another bunch of people who had that same condescening attitude towards him as he had towards me.

I guess its safe to say we learnt out lessons, and found our own paths.

Sanosuke (from rourouni kenshin, yea i spelt that wrongly sorry!) says that we all walk in our fathers shadows,but 1 day, we learn to walk our own.

on my 19th year of existence, I need to learn to put down all the bad habits, all the things from the 18th years, and walk on my own.








but the old me's dead and gone. dead and gone. dead...







P.S: on a side note, someone says i look like Frederico Macheda now, thanks to the new hairdo. WTF.