dé·jà vu
Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[dey-zhah voo, vyoo; Fr. dey-zha vy] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. Psychology. the illusion of having previously experienced something actually being encountered for the first time.
2. disagreeable familiarity or sameness: The new television season had a sense of déjà vu about it—the same old plots and characters with new names.
as im typing this out, i'm getting a sense of Deja Vu.
ok fine. I admit, that's cause i just a whole post so naturally i'm super irritated, add today's events and you have a really pissed off timebomb also known as Jason. Chua.
anyway, having often experienced (or rather the illusion that such an experience occured to me) this effect known as the Deja Vu. I was intrigued at how a movie could be made about it, and was expecting to be mind blown by some really tall philosophy.
to keep it short and to not spoil the movie for anyone who wants to watch the movie, you do still get mind blown. by science. and a better movie name for this movie would be "Time Machine".
watched the movie with Wai Wan and Boey at Vivocity today. and damn Vivocity just makes me feel poor dammit.
just like that retarded show called "The Finer Side" which shows off the err..finer side of living? i mean like come on, if you're rich enough, you probably know the things that are being introduced in it, there isn't really much of a point to play it other than to make us less fortunate people feel that god isn't fair. bleh
a slightly more memorable quote would be "no matter how hard you try, you're still gonna lose them in the end"
Which kinda set me thinking. So when you lose something, do you make an effort the chase that thing back? or do you try and replace it?
its like a hole. do you try to patch that hole back. or do you build a nice house beside in an effort to block out or forget about that hole?
despite all my ranting about it, I still give it 3 1/2 stars. I still think its a decent movie. good enough for me to enjoy. doesn't meet my usual requirements i guess but i think i'll let it pass this time =p.
another huge event from today was this competition orgainsed by JT's church called Out 2 Play. Essentially it had different games namely Basketball, Street Soccer and also Captain's Ball.
To no one's surprise, I joined Street Soccer. Under 20 but i thought we had a decent chance of making it into the top 8 at least. I mean my team was decently strong with members like Hwa Xiang, Thiru, Zhilun me and Waiwan. Looks not that bad on paper right.
I think wad we forgot to factor in was our team's teamwork. Playing together was a first for all of us so naturally there was some confusion.
Like the 1st match. our originally designated last man zhilun left his position in a bid to go upfront to score and consolidate our position. I admit at this point that i made a mistake in not covering him as i went up front so the oppoenent had a totally free header which he buried in the bottom corner leaving Waiwan rooted to the spot and totally helpless. I guess the blame can't be placed squarely on zhilun la, i mean we all did just leave the guy totally open la. so ok fine, we let in the 1st goal, our own fault.
the 2nd goal we let in was really.. just fucked up la. the guy freaking handled the ball in OUR GOAL AREA. and that's a foul. the following goal SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN COUNTED. damn the ref la. wad play goes on. I could like totally understand the feeling of this guy who subsequently got sent off in a separate game after his team had been harshly judged to have fouled an opposing team. no offense JT, but i think the referee was really ambiguous at times and in other times just plain screw up. i think a linesman would have helped things out. Point to take note of for next year? haha.
oh well at least i knwo how those EPL teams feel i guess.
Rubbing salt into our wounds was hwa Xiang's late goal. putting the game at 2-1. meaning tht had the ref been mre alert, we would have drawn the match at 1-1 giving us a far better chance of entering the next round with a win.
as our opponents beat the other team in our group, our last match was played solely for pride nothing else. we didn't bother doing much lo. drew 2-2. was quite irritated also.
compouding things was the news that my try to get into TPJC had failed. Wah that kinda set the tone for things to come the whole day i guess. i wasn't really in the kind of mood for anything. have to apologise if i looked quite pissed the whole day. sian trying to appeal for SAJc tml. but to be honest its like trying to climb up Mt Everest, more or less impossible. but never mind being the loyal Nike and Adidas fan I shall just do it, keeping in mind that impossible is nothing.
Tagboard replies:
Mee Han: wah...so good haha. going back to your 'motherland' eh hehe. buy some nougats la! LOL.
Cheo: to be really strict about it, its not really thailand, more off Laos, which doesn't have that much of a spectacular reputation imho. so forgive me if i dun sound really enthusiastic about it. i admit sounding like some spoilt brat crying cause he got a Tamiya 4 wheel drive instead of a Lexus compared to his friends. bleh. but yea i'm looking forward to the trip i guess. souvenirs for you?
chicken a.k.a marcus: yea man i lurbe lurbe lurbe, but no1 lurbe me back how? >.<>Wai Wan: oh well. i guess you could say that. i mer or less lost the attachment to the show. now only attached to the actress. wait that soudns wrong LOL.
tomorrow's the trip to Laos. anyone wants souvenirs? haha. here's to some deep fried insects and grasshoppers and god-knows-wad-else there is. local delicacies? hmm... i've got to think about this hahaa.
hopefully after the trip, i won't feeel so empty after all haha. but i still wanan have soeone to talk to i guess.. yea i wish i had someone. "but you don't even know where i am. baby to you, all i am, is the invisible man."
I suddenly realised tonight that, you have yet to asnwer like.. any of my questions. everytime i ask you a question, you seem to just pust and delay the answer always having a really good reason to delay it. until you seem to think i;ve forgotten it. to be honest i haven't just don't have the heart to force an answer out of an unwilling person. do you really have to keep these things? do you really have to tell me all these untruths? I dunno i think you've changed. alot. different for the you i once knew and... Was it something i did? or somethign i said? whichever's the culprit..does it really matter anymore? i just hope that you can come out and we can have a nice talk, and not just skim past the surface with these usual typical generic greetings about each others life.
sorry for ranting, i've just been keeping it in my heart for too long and it just felt like it was the right time to do it i guess.