so tell your boyfriend, if he says he's got beef. that i'm a vegetarian and i ain't fucking scared of him.
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemys' eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead, long live the king"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand
I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman calvary choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh, who would ever want to be king
I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman calvary choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman calvary choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
'l be honest, this is 1 of those screw up times, when i thought the song was absolute rubbish. at first.
I took a double take some time during BMT, after another platoon did a slow march to te song. that was when i began to comprehend the majesty of the song.
And well, i was just surfing around for nice vids to throw into the ipod when i found this video, when the song doesn't feel out of place at all. Wonderfully spliced together if you ask me.
I know most of you that read this aren't soccer fans, and those of you who read it and are fans probably can't be arsed to watch, but well.... I get brownie points for trying...please?
Anyway, after 4 weeks in my combat medic course and lots of injections later, I realise that I've learnt more about sex, girls, gays, clubs, gay clubs, people's sisters, songs, beer more than I've learnt about anything to do with the medic course. Its abit embarassing really. But well the people i mix around nowadays have very little inhibitions on very much nothing to be honest. Ithink the conversation that epitomised it the most probably was this:
"eh *****, you wank before you come camp not?"
"... where got time, i was clubbing the night before then damn tired when i reach home...ok la got la, i before i rsh out i chiong to check clear. LOL"
And that's the milder ones already. lolx. I won't say its cool or anything, but i guess its well... refreshing?
anyway, going on that train of thought, and talking about girls (when they kinda refuse to believe that i've never had a girlfriend before). The thing i realised was, a couple of them were really the 'players' the kind that were pretty promiscuous, but then they were probably the kind that you wouldnt exactly expect them to get the girls. Which makes you wonder... who's got it all wrong?
you think girls like the kind of nice guys all, faith ful and stuff and blah blah crap bullshit.
maybe we were wrong. (we includes 1 other friend in it, although i don't think he'll realise i included him)
I've heard theories that maybe its just that girls don't wanna step out of their comfort zones blah blah. My take is that they wanna try out something they know they won't want forever. since you don't want it eventually,might as well try it out now and keep it temporarily. mesochistic in a way, that they like to get hurt and start whining and complaining about it. And i learnt girls will tell you anything to give themselves an excuse to feel better. I heard one girl mention that she wasn't interested cause of god and stuff. 3 months later (or less) I heard she was attached. classic.
so well... I was wondering about learning how to be a 'bad' boy lol. I'm still chuckling over the thought of me trying to be like that.
but i realised at 3am in the morning at Wenbin's house whilst i was clearing up the rubbish we left during his party while every one else was either sleeping or on the Xbox.... that I'm just not that kind of guy. I'm the kind who'll happily clear up the rubbish while everyone sleeps, stay awake so i won't oversleep and not be able to wake the rest up in time for whatever they have. That's just... me. The over sensitive, idiot who cares too much for his own good. (P.S: I'm not complaining by the way, its just an afterthought. in a sick twisted sort of way, i actually enjoy doing it. so yea. wth.)
We drank quite abit to be honest, and well. got high as usual. The best part of being high is that after the effects wear off, you get this moment of pure clarity, kinda like after you wank (okay shit i'm getting influenced by my platoon mates already). But yea, and watching Iron Man (the part when Stark realises his weapons created to protect america have actually been sold to those terrorists) along with it didn't help either lol.
and for a moment I realised that nearly a year ago, I was feeling the exact same thing as what i was now. The bored nothing better to do kind of empty life, with no girls somemore. So I basically willed myself to find a crush and ended up... falling a little for her. i think. And starting the entire stupid cycle. hilarious really, but then again hindsight is 50/50. Only like 3 people knows about this really, so I think this part should be a little confusing. Then again the crush probably doesn't know so SHHHH....
anyway back to my little moment of "me-time" (no its not what you think it is you sick bastards), I realised 1 thing. Life was back to its same usual boring self, my warts not causing any significant trouble, but my knee is getting fked up
(once again). But sans to all of that, I think i can run and stuff, I just need to find an amateur soccer team to accept me on saturdays and then I think I've found what I wanted in life, at least until the end of the year.
I know i shouldnt really be bothered with saying this, but yea, there are times i regret what I did. But well, valuable lesson. Painful, but valuable. Time to get a backbone, and start acting like a boy, not the irritating father that no1 likes.
and it's okay if you had go away
oh just remember the telephone well they works both ways
but if I never ever hear them ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
cause you and I both loved
what you and I spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of,
finally out of, finally de de de de de well i'm almost finnally finnaly out of words.
P.S: no IV sessions for the week apparently. HENG SIA.
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