apologize (too little too late)
i had this strange epiphany last night and I guess I do owe a number of people some apologies.
I find that i almost never step up when it matters. It started off with Pegasus. Being one of the more vocal boys in the OG, I guess the onus was kinda on me to really like attempt to lead or strengthen the group. I bombed, let my emotions run wild and just tried to wallow in self pity. Made a big fuss out of nothing and basically looked like an idiot. that was during the camp.
during the 1st orientation, I became childish over the self-perception that i wasn't getting what i deserved and I slapped myself in the face again. oh wow jason, like you couldn't sink any lower.
on 2nd orientation, better still. I found problems to nitpick again. what the fuck is wrong with you!?
was heartbeat too girly? actually....NO. nitpcking as usual
was there too many girls in the group? yeap definitely, but they were a great bunch of people and a definite plus rather than a minus, which is more then wad i can say for myself.
abit of a supremely belater apology to everyone of the Pegasus members especially my O and AOHL's teresa and nicolette (even though i know you will never ever see this, perhaps someone will mention it to you). sorry for not stepping up and making trouble instead. sorry for not supporting and dissenting. for screwing the whole thing up. thanks to everyone who's stuck by though, kept quiet and just pulled me thru.
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah ~ One Republic - Apologise
I find that i almost never step up when it matters. It started off with Pegasus. Being one of the more vocal boys in the OG, I guess the onus was kinda on me to really like attempt to lead or strengthen the group. I bombed, let my emotions run wild and just tried to wallow in self pity. Made a big fuss out of nothing and basically looked like an idiot. that was during the camp.
during the 1st orientation, I became childish over the self-perception that i wasn't getting what i deserved and I slapped myself in the face again. oh wow jason, like you couldn't sink any lower.
on 2nd orientation, better still. I found problems to nitpick again. what the fuck is wrong with you!?
was heartbeat too girly? actually....NO. nitpcking as usual
was there too many girls in the group? yeap definitely, but they were a great bunch of people and a definite plus rather than a minus, which is more then wad i can say for myself.
abit of a supremely belater apology to everyone of the Pegasus members especially my O and AOHL's teresa and nicolette (even though i know you will never ever see this, perhaps someone will mention it to you). sorry for not stepping up and making trouble instead. sorry for not supporting and dissenting. for screwing the whole thing up. thanks to everyone who's stuck by though, kept quiet and just pulled me thru.
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah ~ One Republic - Apologise
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