losing friends
I think sometimes its sad when you kinda lose friends because your friend's friend kinda doesn't like you.
I mean as much as you wanna talk to that person sometimes there's just this barrier that stops you.
As much as the person doesn't mind it there's something that kinda holds you back.
sometimes you're left waiting for the person to make the first move. If he/she doesn't you think they've been influenced...
...when perhaps all that has happened is that he/she was probably waiting for you to make the 1st move for ya to reciprocate it.
kinda dumb when ya think about it, but there's life for ya i guess.
Its been a long time and i guess we've all moved on from then. The aftershocks still linger abit imho. Like I still haven't found an opportunity to pass teh gift to her. Don't really think there's gonna be another chance to do so. At here i guess I'll just leave a 'sorry' to ya YH.
In life, I think what's important is to look back once inawhile and learn from the lessons we've been taught, and move on from there. Make new friends walk along (sometimes with abit of a thick skin) and sometimes i feel i need to think a little bit less for others. Maybe i need to learn to talk with abit more tact, especially when it comes to the opposite sex. Or maybe some of them just weren't meant for me to be friends with.
I've always wished to be like some popular guy who knew alot of people in school, and in some ways i think my friends often say that i've achieved that. I don't really think so, and i guess the difficult thing sometimes is to mantain your 'popularity' (inverted commas to emphasis the irony and scarasm) instead of letting it degenerate into infamity. Its something i'm struggling to learn and in some cases i believe its just better to stick to a few friends and live life on. That's my new life motto and I believe i'm reaping the rewards from it and definitely am alot happier than i've been in some times.
That being said, i still feel kinda sad that some things turned out the way it did, and with the thought that Heroes is gonna debut tonight I guess if i had a chance to have a super power mine would be : Time Travel. Traveling back in time to fix all those stupid mistakes. Never mind abotu the complexities and whatsoever, just plain dreaming in a apocryphal world where everything i say is the law LOL. Doesnt exactly help my cause when i realise the girls i like have friends who have reather disdainful views of me. Oh well, there's only so much i can do. I can only hope that things change.
I've been rather disturbed over the past few days over a number of problems. Firstly a double problem from someone i truly regard as a friend about both love and work. Next was this other girl who was getting two-timed by a friend of mine.
The former was something admittedly more complex than i had expected it to be. His actions didn't exactly help either at times. As much as I could understand that that was merely his usual typical way of expressing himself the teachers in chargfe definitely didnot see things that way. I think he fked himself in the ass today seriously. But never mind, we live to fight another day. He learnt his lesson kinda like the way i learnt mine back in first 3 months which thankfully I was given a 2nd chance by this great great indiviual whom i truly respect from the bottom of my heart My Phillip Tan, the former Disciplin Master of SRJC. Former, as he's moving on to Ponggol Sec to be a vice Principal. But that story's for another time. Anyway, I got my second chance and the way i see it, I believe he has one too. We both hope that things will turn out for the better and as our principal replied in his email "Those who seek to serve SRJC will serve regardless of their position.". Hopefully, it means something is being done i guess. From here, we can only hope against hope and try our best to convince the teacher of his capabilities, not pray.
His other problem was something less troublesome considering the fact that it concerned matters of the heart. Bottomline is they sorted it out with 'put the blame on me' kind of message which i guess... I have no answer and no comments to. Partly as I have no experience in these stuff, partly as this is his stuff and I have no wish to interfere. Its kind of alien to me too, since girls either 1) just drift away from me 2) or after learning from their friends that i like them just disappear from contact. Oh well, life sucks if you're jason but times look up. I hope.
The latter was well... something pretty complicated. All i can say is that I am very very very disappointed with the actions of the perpetuator of the two-timing. I shall not make any excuses to anyone or anthing and I won't comment. I'll just leave it as huge and extreme disappointment.
(if either of you ever read my blog and are unhappy with me posting about your stories please inform me and i will make the appropriate changes asap. :D)
I often believe that nothing is mre important than believing in yourself. Yet sometimes i find myself hypocritically hoping for something divine to intervene and help me. I guess its something innately human to look to something supernatural or 'God' for help when all is beyond them. Which is why I have no qualms and nothing against people who believe what they believe, unless they try to get me to compromise on mine.
I still wish and hope once in awhile, but i guess I've gotta stick to what i believe in and put some faith inmyself and put some effort too. Created some plans and I'm going to stick to it. For the better or the worst.
Touching more on hypocriticality. I find myself often being very hypocritical/two-faced. I feel myself extremely.. I dunno. I always complain about people who don't give me the respect i deserve, when... i often do that myself. . yes people. I know i've just confirmed my worst kept secret ever lolx. Its nto something conscious either. Its just i tend to lsoe my temper more easily, or these people tend to piss me off less. Yes another item to ruminate about and change my ideologies. The worst thing about performing bad habits unconsciously is to do them, consciously.
this has been jason, still on his odyssey of learning more about this journey called life signing off from more chaotic and random thoughts.
I mean as much as you wanna talk to that person sometimes there's just this barrier that stops you.
As much as the person doesn't mind it there's something that kinda holds you back.
sometimes you're left waiting for the person to make the first move. If he/she doesn't you think they've been influenced...
...when perhaps all that has happened is that he/she was probably waiting for you to make the 1st move for ya to reciprocate it.
kinda dumb when ya think about it, but there's life for ya i guess.
Its been a long time and i guess we've all moved on from then. The aftershocks still linger abit imho. Like I still haven't found an opportunity to pass teh gift to her. Don't really think there's gonna be another chance to do so. At here i guess I'll just leave a 'sorry' to ya YH.
In life, I think what's important is to look back once inawhile and learn from the lessons we've been taught, and move on from there. Make new friends walk along (sometimes with abit of a thick skin) and sometimes i feel i need to think a little bit less for others. Maybe i need to learn to talk with abit more tact, especially when it comes to the opposite sex. Or maybe some of them just weren't meant for me to be friends with.
I've always wished to be like some popular guy who knew alot of people in school, and in some ways i think my friends often say that i've achieved that. I don't really think so, and i guess the difficult thing sometimes is to mantain your 'popularity' (inverted commas to emphasis the irony and scarasm) instead of letting it degenerate into infamity. Its something i'm struggling to learn and in some cases i believe its just better to stick to a few friends and live life on. That's my new life motto and I believe i'm reaping the rewards from it and definitely am alot happier than i've been in some times.
That being said, i still feel kinda sad that some things turned out the way it did, and with the thought that Heroes is gonna debut tonight I guess if i had a chance to have a super power mine would be : Time Travel. Traveling back in time to fix all those stupid mistakes. Never mind abotu the complexities and whatsoever, just plain dreaming in a apocryphal world where everything i say is the law LOL. Doesnt exactly help my cause when i realise the girls i like have friends who have reather disdainful views of me. Oh well, there's only so much i can do. I can only hope that things change.
I've been rather disturbed over the past few days over a number of problems. Firstly a double problem from someone i truly regard as a friend about both love and work. Next was this other girl who was getting two-timed by a friend of mine.
The former was something admittedly more complex than i had expected it to be. His actions didn't exactly help either at times. As much as I could understand that that was merely his usual typical way of expressing himself the teachers in chargfe definitely didnot see things that way. I think he fked himself in the ass today seriously. But never mind, we live to fight another day. He learnt his lesson kinda like the way i learnt mine back in first 3 months which thankfully I was given a 2nd chance by this great great indiviual whom i truly respect from the bottom of my heart My Phillip Tan, the former Disciplin Master of SRJC. Former, as he's moving on to Ponggol Sec to be a vice Principal. But that story's for another time. Anyway, I got my second chance and the way i see it, I believe he has one too. We both hope that things will turn out for the better and as our principal replied in his email "Those who seek to serve SRJC will serve regardless of their position.". Hopefully, it means something is being done i guess. From here, we can only hope against hope and try our best to convince the teacher of his capabilities, not pray.
His other problem was something less troublesome considering the fact that it concerned matters of the heart. Bottomline is they sorted it out with 'put the blame on me' kind of message which i guess... I have no answer and no comments to. Partly as I have no experience in these stuff, partly as this is his stuff and I have no wish to interfere. Its kind of alien to me too, since girls either 1) just drift away from me 2) or after learning from their friends that i like them just disappear from contact. Oh well, life sucks if you're jason but times look up. I hope.
The latter was well... something pretty complicated. All i can say is that I am very very very disappointed with the actions of the perpetuator of the two-timing. I shall not make any excuses to anyone or anthing and I won't comment. I'll just leave it as huge and extreme disappointment.
(if either of you ever read my blog and are unhappy with me posting about your stories please inform me and i will make the appropriate changes asap. :D)
I often believe that nothing is mre important than believing in yourself. Yet sometimes i find myself hypocritically hoping for something divine to intervene and help me. I guess its something innately human to look to something supernatural or 'God' for help when all is beyond them. Which is why I have no qualms and nothing against people who believe what they believe, unless they try to get me to compromise on mine.
I still wish and hope once in awhile, but i guess I've gotta stick to what i believe in and put some faith inmyself and put some effort too. Created some plans and I'm going to stick to it. For the better or the worst.
Touching more on hypocriticality. I find myself often being very hypocritical/two-faced. I feel myself extremely.. I dunno. I always complain about people who don't give me the respect i deserve, when... i often do that myself. . yes people. I know i've just confirmed my worst kept secret ever lolx. Its nto something conscious either. Its just i tend to lsoe my temper more easily, or these people tend to piss me off less. Yes another item to ruminate about and change my ideologies. The worst thing about performing bad habits unconsciously is to do them, consciously.
this has been jason, still on his odyssey of learning more about this journey called life signing off from more chaotic and random thoughts.
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