painful lessons and disappointing friendships
its not often that i come along and blog. in fact its really been a long long time, that sometimes i really think my blog has lost its true meaning and purpose for which i created in the very beginning of time (time for some drama-mama).
I think from the last post till now a certain time period has passed. while i would like to emphatically claim that I've grown up and become a better person by learning from all my mistakes, that would definitely not be a very accurate claim. They say that "the fool learns from his own mistakes, the wise learns from other's mistakes." which really makes me wonder (maroon 5 :D) where does that leave assclowns like me who learn neither from their own mistakes or others'. I dunno if i'm really thick or just 1 hell of a great imbecile, retard, FOOL.
Haven't you gotten burnt in the fingers after letting the wrong people know too much? I mean it just happened not that long ago didn't it. I swear (with the consensus of wai wan) that SOME girls can sometimes be the hardest creatures to udnerstand, and i emphasise the some because I do know of some girls who are just the best people to be around and the best friends you can have (especially the recent ones whom i have made closer contact with) but some just inexplicably irritate you, like they were created solely for the purpose of destroying ur life. No wonder Iago (read Othello by my new best friend shakespear) was misogynistic in nature indeed.
maybe you have your other side of ur story, no one knows actually. maybe that person missed out on something maybe its just you. or maybe like another neutral party said, he could have had a motive but you all just thought too much. I don't actually think its her fault, more of her friends fault actually
maybe...
but sometimes in life, we just need something more than a listening ear.
The friends in life we choose are pretty important. More so for me since i have like no one to share problems with being an only child. What compounds it all is the fact that i also look to my friends to point out my flaws knowing that no one else in the world will do it. Which is why I'm never critical about my friends when they let me know such stuff, i'm actually pretty grateful to them. Just like i hope for their help when I require it most. Like this chinese essay we were given during chinese comprehension, friends are like bridges. They make every attempt to help you (even dragging themselves down the water) when you need it. Which explains why i was desperately asking Teresa about the truth just to put my mind at ease, because it was something she had which i would or could never have gotten (thanks ter :D). that's how i define friendship. Which is why i treasure each and every good friend i have.
Perhaps I'm being over-bearing, autocratic, domineering, even abit despotic with all of these. Maybe, i'm missing out things with these myopic scope of vision, its for you to judge and to decide to tell me or not.
Which is why life is a journey i'm still walking and why i'm still on the learning curve. Perchantly, my opinion's may change after mroe experiences.
for now though, its really still Quesera Quesera (whatever will be, will be)
now back on to rushing out my I&R. This blogpost has seriously wasted alot of my time. I have this prevalent fear that someone may just read it and twist its meaning out of context. then again i don't really see how different everything might be.
"face down in the dirt she said this doesn't hurt ; she said she finally had enough"
I think from the last post till now a certain time period has passed. while i would like to emphatically claim that I've grown up and become a better person by learning from all my mistakes, that would definitely not be a very accurate claim. They say that "the fool learns from his own mistakes, the wise learns from other's mistakes." which really makes me wonder (maroon 5 :D) where does that leave assclowns like me who learn neither from their own mistakes or others'. I dunno if i'm really thick or just 1 hell of a great imbecile, retard, FOOL.
Haven't you gotten burnt in the fingers after letting the wrong people know too much? I mean it just happened not that long ago didn't it. I swear (with the consensus of wai wan) that SOME girls can sometimes be the hardest creatures to udnerstand, and i emphasise the some because I do know of some girls who are just the best people to be around and the best friends you can have (especially the recent ones whom i have made closer contact with) but some just inexplicably irritate you, like they were created solely for the purpose of destroying ur life. No wonder Iago (read Othello by my new best friend shakespear) was misogynistic in nature indeed.
maybe you have your other side of ur story, no one knows actually. maybe that person missed out on something maybe its just you. or maybe like another neutral party said, he could have had a motive but you all just thought too much. I don't actually think its her fault, more of her friends fault actually
maybe...
but sometimes in life, we just need something more than a listening ear.
The friends in life we choose are pretty important. More so for me since i have like no one to share problems with being an only child. What compounds it all is the fact that i also look to my friends to point out my flaws knowing that no one else in the world will do it. Which is why I'm never critical about my friends when they let me know such stuff, i'm actually pretty grateful to them. Just like i hope for their help when I require it most. Like this chinese essay we were given during chinese comprehension, friends are like bridges. They make every attempt to help you (even dragging themselves down the water) when you need it. Which explains why i was desperately asking Teresa about the truth just to put my mind at ease, because it was something she had which i would or could never have gotten (thanks ter :D). that's how i define friendship. Which is why i treasure each and every good friend i have.
Perhaps I'm being over-bearing, autocratic, domineering, even abit despotic with all of these. Maybe, i'm missing out things with these myopic scope of vision, its for you to judge and to decide to tell me or not.
Which is why life is a journey i'm still walking and why i'm still on the learning curve. Perchantly, my opinion's may change after mroe experiences.
for now though, its really still Quesera Quesera (whatever will be, will be)
now back on to rushing out my I&R. This blogpost has seriously wasted alot of my time. I have this prevalent fear that someone may just read it and twist its meaning out of context. then again i don't really see how different everything might be.
"face down in the dirt she said this doesn't hurt ; she said she finally had enough"
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