operator, I need a line. now

why do we fall?

so we can learn to pick ourselves up.


A line can mean a unmber of things, a line to someone else to contact. Or if you're a matrix fan, a line also means an exit. a way out of whatever shit hole you've dug.


I have no idea why, or how. but somehow i seem to lag.

its just beginning to hit me how shitty my results are and how hopeless my path seems.

Shawn was tellingme he was worried for a moment that i would go crazy and suicide or something. And now I'm thinking why not.

(I'm joking)

(just like how I'm typing this post on my rooftop)

(on my 4 storey bungalow)


wait, now i'm suicidal AND delusional. Or maybe someone just PUSH-ed a thought into me. maybe... i dunno.

I guess I've always had it in life easy, somehow things always managed to work out. PSLE, O Levels. So... this feels strange.

I know everyone's saying what's done is done and all. but like, doesnt really make things better does it?

I think i need someone to talk to. I need a line.