最熟悉的陌生人
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡
I was at raffles city today, to make my way to the Singapore Flyer. When I met this girl that came up to ask me for donations. I dropped 10 cents.
I walked to suntec first where i saw another 3 girls, 1 of which approached me for those coin donations. I opened up my Eclipse coin box, took out 3 coins, (think it was 2 20 cent, and 1 10 cent coin) put it in her hand and told her to give it to her friends too.
When I finally reached singapore flyer, another fella came up asking for money. I put anoter 15 cent i think. (yea quite cheapo)
And yet tonight, after palying soccer, after the water i bought got raped by all those jokers i was playing with, I needed coins to get a drink. No one had any coins on them. And i was left wondering "hello karma? I thought do good things will have good things to happen to you? i not asking for all my money back. i just asking for 35 miserable cents so i can at least get a bottle of mineral water back from Sheng Shiong. Hell, I'm not even taking the money, I'm just borrowing it."
someone will probably come over and say "hey if you do good things, then you shouldnt expect anything good in return.". Hell, if i do bad things, can i not expect bad things in return? Then agian, good and bad are really just sides on a coin, depending on which side of the fence you sit on. What defines good. what defines bad? I guess in the simplest lay-man terms one can put it in, good is when someone benefits from soemthing. Bad is when someone gets hurt. yea. I'm sorry if you've got other definitions, but for argument's sake, lets just agree to this definition for the moment.
Then agian, how does 1 know if good, doesn't exploit someone else in return? In the same manner, do bad things never, benefit a 3rd party. sure it does. Perhaps, the robber had a house to feed. If the mafia boss wasn't peddling drugs perhaps his lackeys wouldnt be able to feed their parents at home.
so yea, i don't believe in doing 'good' or 'bad' things. I believe in choices, which fundamentally affect a 3rd party regardless of how you put it into action, when you put it into action and why you put it into action. Its part of causality. Cause and effect. Someone does something, the effect is that somoene else gets affected inevitably. In a way, I guess the important thing of choices is relegated to the question: why?
Because we cannot see beyond the choices we don't understand.
like why i choose to continue my job when i find it boring like shit, cause i need the money.
like when I do over eleborate stuff and attempt to trick past a person instead of an easy pass to the keeper, cause the fella was pissing me off.
When you worry about A levels, cause you didnt do enough to inspire confidence in you.
like how a song gains a meteoric rise into your list of favourite songs... and falls out just as quickly due to over-listening.
like when you shoot straight at the keeper, when you know you should tucked it into the bottom corner.
when you know you should stop smoking cause its eating your money, but you give yourself millions of excuses and blame everything but yourself for continuing.
when you tell someone something, knowing full well the person will tell someonelse, cause you trust that person, and you know how deep that rabbit hole is.
like when you know you're fat, but you dont wanna diet, and just keep telling yourself exercise is enough.
when you can't get a girlfriend, and blame the girls for being fucked up.
like when you think your boss sucks, and is always out to get you ; it could be that you rubbed him the wrong way, or your work really sucks
when someone looks at you, and you look the other way, cause you don't wanna get sucked into that false hope syndrome. again.
like when you listen to sad songs when you're sad knowing full well its only gonna make you feel worst; but you dun wanna change the genre cause you wish for the whole world to 'emo' with you.
like being an idiot, and staying an idiot; cause is being true to yourself.
NOTE: this post is unfinished. But knowing myself I'll never post it up cause i'll never finish it if i don't do it today. And i gotta sleep already cause i've gotta wake up at 8 tomorrow to go temple. so here's to posting whatever's done from an emo kid who's had too much free time on his hands, and a little too much to drink :)
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡
I was at raffles city today, to make my way to the Singapore Flyer. When I met this girl that came up to ask me for donations. I dropped 10 cents.
I walked to suntec first where i saw another 3 girls, 1 of which approached me for those coin donations. I opened up my Eclipse coin box, took out 3 coins, (think it was 2 20 cent, and 1 10 cent coin) put it in her hand and told her to give it to her friends too.
When I finally reached singapore flyer, another fella came up asking for money. I put anoter 15 cent i think. (yea quite cheapo)
And yet tonight, after palying soccer, after the water i bought got raped by all those jokers i was playing with, I needed coins to get a drink. No one had any coins on them. And i was left wondering "hello karma? I thought do good things will have good things to happen to you? i not asking for all my money back. i just asking for 35 miserable cents so i can at least get a bottle of mineral water back from Sheng Shiong. Hell, I'm not even taking the money, I'm just borrowing it."
someone will probably come over and say "hey if you do good things, then you shouldnt expect anything good in return.". Hell, if i do bad things, can i not expect bad things in return? Then agian, good and bad are really just sides on a coin, depending on which side of the fence you sit on. What defines good. what defines bad? I guess in the simplest lay-man terms one can put it in, good is when someone benefits from soemthing. Bad is when someone gets hurt. yea. I'm sorry if you've got other definitions, but for argument's sake, lets just agree to this definition for the moment.
Then agian, how does 1 know if good, doesn't exploit someone else in return? In the same manner, do bad things never, benefit a 3rd party. sure it does. Perhaps, the robber had a house to feed. If the mafia boss wasn't peddling drugs perhaps his lackeys wouldnt be able to feed their parents at home.
so yea, i don't believe in doing 'good' or 'bad' things. I believe in choices, which fundamentally affect a 3rd party regardless of how you put it into action, when you put it into action and why you put it into action. Its part of causality. Cause and effect. Someone does something, the effect is that somoene else gets affected inevitably. In a way, I guess the important thing of choices is relegated to the question: why?
Because we cannot see beyond the choices we don't understand.
like why i choose to continue my job when i find it boring like shit, cause i need the money.
like when I do over eleborate stuff and attempt to trick past a person instead of an easy pass to the keeper, cause the fella was pissing me off.
When you worry about A levels, cause you didnt do enough to inspire confidence in you.
like how a song gains a meteoric rise into your list of favourite songs... and falls out just as quickly due to over-listening.
like when you shoot straight at the keeper, when you know you should tucked it into the bottom corner.
when you know you should stop smoking cause its eating your money, but you give yourself millions of excuses and blame everything but yourself for continuing.
when you tell someone something, knowing full well the person will tell someonelse, cause you trust that person, and you know how deep that rabbit hole is.
like when you know you're fat, but you dont wanna diet, and just keep telling yourself exercise is enough.
when you can't get a girlfriend, and blame the girls for being fucked up.
like when you think your boss sucks, and is always out to get you ; it could be that you rubbed him the wrong way, or your work really sucks
when someone looks at you, and you look the other way, cause you don't wanna get sucked into that false hope syndrome. again.
like when you listen to sad songs when you're sad knowing full well its only gonna make you feel worst; but you dun wanna change the genre cause you wish for the whole world to 'emo' with you.
like being an idiot, and staying an idiot; cause is being true to yourself.
NOTE: this post is unfinished. But knowing myself I'll never post it up cause i'll never finish it if i don't do it today. And i gotta sleep already cause i've gotta wake up at 8 tomorrow to go temple. so here's to posting whatever's done from an emo kid who's had too much free time on his hands, and a little too much to drink :)
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